A Little Time Off And Some Introspection

There has been a bit of a break between my last post (Valentine's Day or thereabouts) and my more recent posts. Its funny because time really seems to pass by quickly unless you make a point of paying close attention to it. Maybe this is a sign that I need to organize my time better or maybe its a sign that I need to be more mindful of my life on a daily basis.

It's a good life. Master treats me very well. While he has no hesitation about enforcing discipline on me or using me like a slutty fuck toy, he is also so kind and caring. In the beginning, I didn't think that I wanted an M/s relationship where affection and kindness was a thing. Part of that was a layover from my previous relationship which, as it turns out, wasn't as healthy as I thought it was.

Regardless, the time off hasn't totally been by choice, but it hasn't been for a bad reason either. Its simply because I have started writing again. It may seem strange that my writing things may get in the way of my writing THIS thing (this being the blog) but the fact of the matter is that most of the writing I have been doing these days has been for money.

Years ago, in another life (my previous marriage) I tried freelancing. It was a hell of a lot of fun. I've been told by a few people that I'm not half bad at getting my thoughts down on the page (or screen) and a lot of the creative stuff I did helped me work through the crud in my mind. I even went to college for journalism although that career choice was not one I ended up pursuing.

I decided to try writing for money and it did generate some income but not enough to go it alone. When my first marriage ended, I kind of packed up my business and put it on the back burner while I looked for a job that would mean I could feed the kidlets on a continuing basis. Over time, the urge to write faded and I ended up just getting out of the habit.

Now, though, I've decided to start it all up again. I began in December as a way to try and pay down some bills and keep my creative juices flowing all at the same time. Well, this time, things have been going well. Really well. I have a few clients and their work kind of keeps me hopping. The problem is, when I spend all of my time writing for coin, it makes it harder to find the minutes and hours needed to keep up with a blog. So, this project kind of faded into the background for a bit.

Problem is, I don't WANT it to. I don't want to take an unintended vacation again. So I'm going to prioritize better and find ways to manage my time that let all of my projects flourish. I just need to find a way to do so.