Changing My Attitude

Recently, Master told me about a dream that he had had. It involved me and another woman having sex while Master watched and enjoyed the view. This was the first time that he had ever told me about a dream involving another person. Up until now (as far as I know), fantasies that Master has had tended to simply involve him and I.

Not that I mind that he had dreams that involved another woman. After all, it sounded pretty hot and it was just a dream. It did lead to a further conversation, though. One thing was regarding the idea of a threesome. I've been hesitant in the past about involving another woman in our bed. I wouldn't deny Master anything but he knows that I have misgivings about it.

The main one is a fear of diseases. Master and I are both clean and disease free and we both want to keep it that way. Sure, condoms and other things can help reduce the chances of getting an infection but its not foolproof. The other is an emotional one. My previous Master had affairs. Apparently, he had lots of them. Although I know that Master is not the same person my ex was, it still causes a knee-jerk reaction in me that I am working really hard at getting rid of.

So an idea was brought up about using a professional to do so. I'm not about to go trolling the interwebz to find some girl to be our unicorn. That doesn't seem like it's fair or even really all that realistic to be honest. And the idea of someone local brings up that knee-jerk reaction I'm working so hard on getting rid of.

Another thing that we discussed was the idea of another slave. It's something that has come up from time to time and, over time, my attitude has changed. In the beginning, the idea would have made me run away screaming. Again, I wouldn't deny Master if he really wanted to bring in another woman but it would take a lot of mental rearranging and I think I would be very sad until I worked through it. Master doesn't have a desire for a second slave at this point so its not on the table.

What was mentioned was the idea of bringing in another male. Master is bisexual. We enjoy discussing other people of both genders that we both find attractive and I think it has helped us be more in tune with one another. I also know that the idea of a male joining the household is (at least in theory) much less alarming than the idea of another woman would be.

I know that if a man did join the house, that in an ideal world, I would have as little interaction with his penis as possible. I don't want a man other than Master and, unless directed to do so, I wouldn't want to be sexually involved with another male. I don't know how other things would pan out as far as authority etc. I do know that would depend on the person that ended up joining us.

Master has said that he doesn't think that its something he wants to explore at this point and, to be honest, I'm just as glad about that. I like the way things are going with Master and I and I know that adding another person would change that. I'm afraid of change. In the end, though, I trust Master and if he decides that that is a direction he wants to go then I am more than happy to work with him to see how feasible it would be.