Texting Sucks but It Will Have to Do

Master has been away with work and the main way that we have been communicating is through text messaging. We text back and forth as often as possible throughout the day. The frequency with which we do this depends on what is going on for both of us work-wise. There are some days when we don't have much of a chance to send stuff back and forth and there are some days when we can keep in fairly constant contact.

When Master and I are together, this is a wonderful thing. We can make plans for dinner, talk about what is happening throughout the day or get questions that we may have answered in fairly short order. It is also nice because there is a written record so if one of us needs the other to pick something up at the store etc we can send that information along. Humans being humans, there is always a chance that something will be forgotten but, on the whole, its a fairly decent system.

What sucks about texting is that there is absolutely no context or tone to the messages. That means that it is very easy for either Master or I to take something in a way that it was not intended. I tend to be kind of an emotional creature and so usually I think it's me that gets grumpy even though I try not to. Lately, it seems as though I've been getting grumpier than usual.

There are a few reasons that I am off kilter emotionally. While none of them are an excuse for acting up and being grumpy, they do influence my emotional balance and when that is off, I find it very easy for other things to make me even more upset. Right now, I am dealing with a heavy work schedule, some work issues that aren't related to the fact that I am there as much as I am, some after effects from Thanksgiving, and the general fact that I miss Master a hell of a lot.

In the past, I've used meditation as a way to help sort out stuff and to correct negative behaviours but because I have been busy, that has fallen by the wayside. I'm planning to start meditating again as often as possible as a way to work through all the mental junk and get into a better place inside my head. While I love that Master is supportive it's not fair of me to be a jerk just because there is a lot going on in my life.